Friday, September 14, 2012

FamilyFridays: We are OVERCOMERS!

 "For I KNOW the plans I HAVE for you,” DECLARES THE LORD, “plans to PROSPER you and NOT TO HARM you, plans to GIVE you HOPE AND A FUTURE." - JEREMIAH 29:11 (emphasis mine)

Though, it's a scripture used very often, I encourage you to read it again - a couple times, really slowly, taking it all in...before you read on. 

Go ahead. Try it. 

This has been said to me all day...on repeat...ALL DAY.

In franticness - what was a celebration a couple weeks ago is now a significant loss. A hopeful job with incredible benefits has been ripped from us - with no validity.

I'm not going to lie - I woke up crying. I had just had a visit from Auntie Flow - which means we aren't expecting another Ward little (shocking)...I know I shouldn't be sarcastic. And Ben lost a job he never really worked.  One with great benefits and incredible hours.

My mourning turned to pain - then back to tears...

Then in my heartbreak. I reminded myself HE KNOWS HIS PLANS. HE KNOWS MY JOURNEY.

I became convicted of much today. Convicted about my hope and security in this JOB...rather than JESUS. Convicted about the child I didn't have - that was consuming my thoughts, focus and intentions from the child I most certainly DID have. Convicted that I, again didn't initially trust that He has it all anyway.

I am envious of Paul in Philippians 4.

"..for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.  I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:11-13

Lord, help this pathetic excuse of a believer be able to one day say that I have learned the secret of being CONTENT IN ANY AND EVERY SITUATION.

Pretty please.

Our family is well. We will survive. God will provide. We're just learning. Figuring out were we work and where we let Him work. A fine line - that I know He wants honored...and will do well to make sure we honor it.

He is faithful - I mean look at this cute "little" that he gave me...

Our little accountant..

...crunching the numbers...

"....I can't believe how much you spend eating out!!!..."

..."I'm so pooped! That was intense MOM!"...

1 comment:

  1. Oh Jamie! I'm sorry for the job loss. That cannot be an easy thing to walk through. I love that the verse God gave you was on prospering you and giving you a future. He simply has your best in mind and won't forsake you! The Lord will honor you as you continue to honor Him.

    You are NOT a pathetic excuse for a believer. In your weakness, He is truly the strongest. Boast all the more in that!

    I love your vulnerability!