Though, it's a scripture used very often, I encourage you to read it again - a couple times, really slowly, taking it all in...before you read on.
Go ahead. Try it.
This has been said to me all day...on repeat...ALL DAY.
In franticness - what was a celebration a couple weeks ago is now a significant loss. A hopeful job with incredible benefits has been ripped from us - with no validity.
I'm not going to lie - I woke up crying. I had just had a visit from Auntie Flow - which means we aren't expecting another Ward little (shocking)...I know I shouldn't be sarcastic. And Ben lost a job he never really worked. One with great benefits and incredible hours.
My mourning turned to pain - then back to tears...
Then in my heartbreak. I reminded myself HE KNOWS HIS PLANS. HE KNOWS MY JOURNEY.
I became convicted of much today. Convicted about my hope and security in this JOB...rather than JESUS. Convicted about the child I didn't have - that was consuming my thoughts, focus and intentions from the child I most certainly DID have. Convicted that I, again didn't initially trust that He has it all anyway.
I am envious of Paul in Philippians 4.
"..for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:11-13
Lord, help this pathetic excuse of a believer be able to one day say that I have learned the secret of being CONTENT IN ANY AND EVERY SITUATION.
Our family is well. We will survive. God will provide. We're just learning. Figuring out were we work and where we let Him work. A fine line - that I know He wants honored...and will do well to make sure we honor it.
He is faithful - I mean look at this cute "little" that he gave me...
Our little accountant..
...crunching the numbers...
"....I can't believe how much you spend eating out!!!..."
..."I'm so pooped! That was intense MOM!"...